long time never post...

yup, long time didnt write my blog....

been busy lately...because the last semester just started...although only two subjects, but it is a full coursework subjects, lots of assignment needed to be done...sigh...

talk about this weekend, i came back to bp for my cousin wedding...nothing much change here...
i am suppose to go with my girlfriend and my mum...but unfortunately, my mum fall sick the night before the wedding and hospitalize...we sent her to the hospital around 1am...the doctor try to find out what is the cause of my mother dizziness and medical condition...the ran every possible test but everything seems to be normal...my estimation, my mum faces too many pressure and stress from everyday activities...

she has to take care of her sick mother...even worse...her sister who is my aunt, always ask my mum to fetch her here and there....i feel sad for my mum...1 week, need to fetch her mum and sister to hospital almost 5 times....haih...just hope my mum can get better...luckily i came back this week...so i can help out a little bit...

even though so, we still attended the wedding dinner...the wedding was great...but my dream wedding is 100 times better...haha...anyway, i wish them happy for the rest of their life...

sweet love

过年了...其实每年的过年都一样啦...最开心就是全家团圆...一起吃饭...当然少不了拿红包...哈哈...
虽然这样...不过今年的新年对我来说...是特别的...以为...初三...我去女朋友的家拜年...是以男朋友的身份...顺便见她父母...家人...哇...对我还是第一次去女朋友的家...之前的女朋友的家人...全部都不知道我的存在...有时很麻烦...哈哈...不过她家在麻坡...是有点远啦..去到的时候...很紧张...不过扮到很酷的样子...她介绍她家人给我认识...她妈没有说什么...不过正在准备午餐给我们吃...她婆婆看起来很凶的样子...可是也没有对我怎样...唯一问我家庭背景的....居然是她公公...当时她爸不在家...所以我没有看到他...怎样说呢...在她家认识了她的弟弟和妹妹...还有她表弟....我们还一起玩牌...他们人都很好...她第海鳗搞笑的...

一切都顺利呱...她妈海鳗关心我的...因为她知道时间不早了...我还要开车回去...特别交待我到了要打给慧敏说一声...免得大家担心...

被女友家人接受...我还没试过...不过感觉真的很好...至少也给了我小小的鼓励...希望...会有美好的结局....

我--->你--->我们 091208

你知道吗?
在你来到我的世界之前, 我的生活...真的是很寂寞的...除了去上课有人陪...剩下的...都是独来独往...去哪里...做什么..都是一个人...慢慢的...我的世界...就只有我的电脑...我的床...和我的房间...曾经,也觉得这样一个人的生活很不错...没人管...想干嘛就干嘛...自由自在过生活...慢慢的,变自私...自会为自己想...目中无人...几乎没有人进入得到我的世界...连wb都没有办法...
可是这样的生活...有谁可以忍耐??
然后,你开始跟我们的车回...不知道为什么...总是喜欢作弄你...连wb都问我...你哪里得罪我...哈哈...我说"她好欺负嘛..."...然后...慢慢每天都想听你笑...在msn聊也聊到很不错...然后从msn到sms...慢慢,无时无刻都在聊...我不知道我可以那么容易就相信一个人...把我写的"未完成的作品"给你看...然后,我会开始想念你...在班上我还有时会看一看你...你知道的,我都是坐在后面...迟到王...哈...
其实有人跟我说,你有男朋友的...有一次你自己在车上也有提到...我自己那时有很奇怪的感觉...表达不出...我告诉自己,我不可能会有这样的感觉的...
在sms聊天时...你开始告诉我你和他的事...一开始,我觉得很奇怪...为什么你会告诉我这些...其实还有一点开心的感觉...因为觉得,你相信我,所以跟我说...有时你们吵架...我也只能安慰你...有一次,他不让你出去...你很生气...我不知道怎样安慰你...不过很努力的试...可是你狠狠的把我推开...那时,我觉得我很失败...帮不到你,还被你推开...过后心情差到爆...一直都在等你的信息...不过你有跟我道歉...其实我并没有怪你...觉得自己没用...
不知道为什么...你开始叫我少爷...每天起床都会信息我...那时的我...一直以为,我们只是很谈得来的朋友...我不让自己去想多...毕竟,你有男朋友...可是,我慢慢也发觉到...我们越来越亲密...到了我控制不到自己的阶段...我试着让你明白...我们已经奏太近了...可是你说...你还想叫我少爷...还想每次睡醒就信息我...其它的都不要管...我吓到...感觉到...你对我...也有感觉...不过,我还是把你当朋友...
还记得,你是怎样欠我肉骨茶的吗?
我曾经想过,等你请我吃着炖肉骨茶后...我们是不是不会再那么亲密呢??因为,我觉得我只是路过的...可是,我却不希望那天的到来...到了那天,我决定约你去看电影...然后才去吃肉骨茶...在电影院...我牵了你的手...控制不到对你的感觉...然后,你不但没有拒绝,反而还牵回我的手...就这样...应为肉骨茶...我们开始了...我变成了...第三者...刚开始很难过...因为觉得自己不应该...隔天,原本打算不理你...躲你...可是,你不让我这样做...
他发现了我们的关系...他要你做决定...当时我心想...我应该退出...可是,我发现...一个人的生活...我已经忘记了...记得的...就只有你...我怎样放手?我问你...我可以自私吗? 可以自私到想完全拥有你吗?你说"嗯"...你还问我,你会后悔吗?我很肯定的会说...不会...就这样...你选择了我...

到了今天...我们还是几乎每天都粘在一起...分开一段时间,就会很想念...现在我的生活...有你...我会照顾你...你会陪着我...这样...我们在生活上...弥补了对方的缺点...

今天的我...不再寂寞...不再一个人...不再一个人面对...不再一个人醒...我不知道你会在我身边多久...可是我会珍惜你在我身边的每一分每一秒...i am gonna tell you i love you...in the best way that i can...i promise...

first blog of 2009

good bye 2008, welcome 2009....

last year, i've been through a lot, a lot of memories...happy, pain, sad....a lot more....but is all in the past now...yesterday is always a memory....the future is always a mystery...and now, is always a gift...that's y it is called the "present"...lets feed back some of 2008....

everything is fine at first...everything going really well...except my studies la...struggling...but manage to do it in the end...lost a good friend....rest in peace my friend...lost some one important...who i loved a lot...she left...i'm hurt...stayed single for almost 5months...then, i found her on the 9th of Dec...up and down all the way in 2008....oh ya...i start fighting again in 2008....

i stop lingering in the past...because she hold on to me...take me back to the present and going forward...to the future...for that, i thank you...because i really need someone to be there for me...i might not be the perfect one...i am not the perfect one...but i will do my best and i promise you that with all my heart...

i spend more time in KL now than in BP...i donno y..but i just don feel like going back much...i don have a lot of friend in KL...but who need a ton of friend??we just need 1 or 2 true and good friend...and i got them here....

now my life is not only "me" anymore...and i am glad...

well, CNY coming...but i am having exam and CNY comes in the middle of my exam period..sucks like hell...how to celebrate...haih....but don care la...CNY every year can celebrate de...haha...anyway..i wish everyone....wish come true in 2009...

tiring week

hi, how's your day today?hope is fine....
i have a rough week, well is really tiring...and above all...i am really broke...haha...donno where all my money go...just a clip of an eye...its gone...
starting with last friday...as usual, went to class...then come back...but have to pack...because will be leaving for batu pahat at night...then will be apart with her for a few days...leaving for tournament...i have to...that night i sent her home before leaving kl....but then i stopped by jusco...i bought a christmas' gift for her...i manage to find the money though....i bought a pair of watches...
a picture of the watches....

then i left KL...i reach BP about 12.30am...and the very next day....i need to go malacca...the fight in on sunday and monday...but Koh and me decided to go there early to find my housemate who live in malacca...go to enjoy first...haha...so we left for malacca at 2.15 pm the next day...reach there about 4 pm...the trip wasn't so comfortable...my friend is there to picked us up...then we went to jungle walk to eat...something like petaling street in KL...haha...the food there was nice...then we decided to catch a movie...but the time of showing is not suitable...so we went to play 2 games of bowling instead....it was very tiring...and all the time..i miss her...after that, we went to his place to rest, while waiting for Chua to join us for dinner....we had dinner in portugese village...the food was fantastic....but we felt quite embarrass...because all the expenses my friend paid it...it was quite a amount of money....he insisted that he paid for the meal...then he headed back to his place....then i met his younger brother...only 15 years old...and he is malaysia top 30 magician...he showed us a trick or two...it was really good...and impressive...because the next day we do not need to fight...so we stayed up late that night...it was fun...

the next day....again...the situation was intense....we are assigned to coach...i am in charge of arena C...only 3 of our members will be fighting in that arena...and i can say...they are some good fighters...2 of them are my student...


this is my student, Uzair...a very good fighter...he won silver medal for this tournament...i was a very tough fight....he won this first fight with a KO.





Firdaus...he won a bronze medal...
well, that day didn't go so well....but the experience is the thing one cant buy with money....so we only keep that to ourself...that day sure was tiring...then we went back to the house...and had a home cook dinner....that night we watch football match together...

Monday...fight day...i am prepare...this will be the toughest tournament for me...because all of our competitor...will be our malaysia's army forces...ATM, NAVVY...damn...there are tough...we are here today to fight the defense forces of our country...haha...funny...sound like we are actually having war with our own country...but hey, sportmanship ok?no offence...

so i fight the second bout...i fought a navvy, who is half a head taller than me...i fight till the end though...i lost 2 points....haha...i lost in my first fight....well, basically...almost all of our members lost in the first match...



then, we headed back to kl right after the tournament is over...because my friend had to attend a class...so we rush back...i wanted to go back fast too...because, i wanna see her...

so we reach kl...i met her...and i rest for the day...because...i couldn't walk properly...

skip to christmas eve....i supprise her with the present...she was so happy...haha...well...on that night, we went celebrate at SG.Wang...things don't quite actually go the way i expected...we went to pavillion sport bar...drink beer and Chivass...she drank too much...haih...rough night...but still...we are happy...

today, she went back to Muar...she is not feeling so well though...i was worried...but she reached there safe and sound..and it will be 5 days until we can see her again...well, i will be in KL the whole time...so basically i am alone on christmas day...haha...use to it...
i found out that, we cant be apart for very long...even for a day....i mean, she never left my mind...every second...she told me the same thing...wonder how it will be when there is a sem break....haha...looking forward to see how we handle this....she can make me think only her...but no one else...no one that i ever met can make me felt like this...hope things work out...oh ya...i love the gift you gave me bbe....

fuck up situation...

first i felt sorry....i mean, for some reason i took her away from him...
i respect him as he said he respect her choice...i said to myself...if i could be half of the way he handle this...
then, he start sent those sms's to her and annoyed me...i mean i thought he respect her choice...which he didnt do what he said...which totally piss me off...motherfucker...i thought he was a respectable man...but turn out he make me look down completely on him...this is shit...because of him, several people's life are effected...which made several people's life cannot live in peace...

now, he wanna meet her...
and then i have to wait here...
what should i do is a unknown answer....
just hope everything will be back normal...
the normal will be i back in love...

i found you.....

hey, bbe...i donno whether u will read this or not...

hey guys, i found her...i find love again...it was hard to do so...when people leave my life one by one...you know..."people always leave"...
we gone through a lot to be together...it was not easy thing for her...neither to me...but we made it at last...even though "people always leave"[Payton Sawyer from One tree hill]...but "people always have a choice"[Lucas Scott form One tree hill]...we made our choice...and here we are...in love....just hope everything turn out fine for us...

this few days...we spent most of the time together...this made me felt different with my life...at least now i am not alone to face everything fucked up thing in my life...she is here with me...and i am there for her too...we face the same life...just hope...i can enter her world as she could enter mine with ease...i found out that we have quite a lot in common...some times...we say the same things together....haha...i felt love again...and i felt that i am important to some one again...someone cares for me again...listen to what i have to say...take care of me...i am just the most lucky guy right now...

PC FAIR...
i have to say...is completely a disappointment towards Maxis Broadband management!!! where is their brain??? one island...one booth...and they can mess up by hiring too many part time....150 part time promoters...on the first day...who dare to go there?? how to fight sales when there is so many part timers? they didn't see this coming...and we suffer the most because is too hard to do sales around the booth...we have to go around and try to find customers...and avoid PIKOM's coordinators...haih..i just wanna do sales only...sorry guys...i noe finding u all to come work and this kind of situation happened is really wasting your time...i am sorry...next time i will make sure everything is safe only ask u all...if there is a next time la...if not...i will do myself de....is ok...this pc fair...i really not in the mood to do anything...haih...luckilly got bbe...acc me...if not...i die liao lo...

ASSIGNMENT
IMK assignment...totally rejected by Mr Goh...and need to resubmit on thursday...is very stressful because it was all last minutes work,...and messed everything up...i took the blame though....because i didnt guide them well...i noe how to do...but i didnt check their work...haih...depress...Marketing Reseach assignment also haven touch...DAMN...how to handle??anyone please???

TOURNAMENT
Mellaca...22nd DEC...i donno am i prepared for this...but i really wanna win....is not easy...but only tough challenges make us grow...i will give my best shot...i promise...bbe...very "ke xi" that you cannot come to my tournament...really hope u can...but i noe...u you always support me de right?? and don worry...remember what i promise you last night k?

Closing...
you see...how you live your life does not depends on fate completely....fate brings you the choices...and you choose...we always have a choice...how we choose and what we choose will decide the outcome of everything....so my friend...choose wisely...take care and good luck...