one week....

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one week after my tournament...everyday is just pain....and tiredness...hardly fall asleep at night makes me wonder why...some more, the stupid whether made me sick...i am sick, and i am i pain...this week is really suffering...but, day by day the pain slowly goes away...haha...

our class took some class picture...with all wear the same color...and our international marketing tutor, Mr Goh...well...it was nice....

assignment coming....will be very busy this two weeks....i am prepared for it....when is over...i need to really start my revision....exam getting near...but...our working team will go to penang on december for PC fair....i am looking forward for this event...it will be 4 days 3 nights there...will tell u guys all about it.....

tomorrow, will be my 4th months anniversary of breaking up....means i am single for 4 months....this is quite some time for me...well, can say i fully healed...but, yesterday when she sms me, i thought i can handle it...but in the end...i cant...i had to stop our chat...because even though i am healed...there left a scar...when touches the scar...i will still feel the pain....it doesn't make me comfortable....i mean, until now....i still don't understand why she keep telling me that she felt guilty for what she did...and still cries about it everytime she think of me...i mean, if some one know that doing some thing will cause them to felt guilty, will they still do it? i sincerely hope she is happy this the guy now...and get what she ever wanted...or what i couldn't give her...because, if she don't...she will say, she regret dumping me....and i don't want her to regret...it will fucking make it hard for me too....well, at least i am good for now...and i am thankful for that.....

yup...tournaments's over

on 15 and 16 of November, Speed Power Taekwondo Association organized a sparring tournament that took place in stadium Kluang sport complex...i took part of this tournament...

first day,
i don't have any match on first day, but i had to be there to coach the student that will be fighting on that day. so, 5 of us from Batu Pahat went to help out to coach..coaching require fighters that have great experience so that they can do everything they can to assist the player to win a match. well, as head coach, i requested that i will pick the coach for the tournament. Me, Chua, Koh, Hanafi and Musa. we were the main coach that day, the rest were assisting us and equipment and team manager. well, this tournament was a totally new experience for all of us, because speed power taekwondo association organized almost 10 tournament a year, in our ex-association, only once a year. so, our player's experience can't compare with others...so, we just enter to have some fun and experience. but in the end, we turn out ok... for primary school, all was under control...although some of our best player lost, but we managed to lead our players to 8 finals. on the first day, we got 1 gold and 7 silver which basically means we lost 7 out of 8 finals. well, it was fun anyway...our players enjoy the game...the only thing screw up in the tournament, is there was a lots of flies...as KLUANG is famous with FLIES!!!!! later that day, i drove them home and went home to rest, i was feeling really sleepy and really need some rest as the next day i will be fighting.

second day,
i woke up about 5 am, got ready and left house by 6 am. then drove to the avenue again. i found out that i only have to fight 2 rounds to win the gold, so i figured, how about i go for it...so i coach and fight that day...Chua and i didn't fight for almost 2 years, and this is our first tournament for so long. we did ok in the first round, we both faced indian. haha....but i won the first match with unexpected performance so is chua...well, we both then lost in the finals to very good fighters came from muhibah wenwu....so both of us got silver medal instead...it was ok for us because it shows that even though we stop for so long, but in some way, we still can make it to the finals. well honestly, i am a little bit disappointed with my match because, in my fighting career, i never lose a final...well, there is always a first time right...this tournament, make my life wonderful again....because doing what i love most...i will keep on fighting...i won't stop easily this time...because hope is in my heart once again....my dream come alive and all of a sudden...my life is meaningful again...well guys, i suffered some injuries during the tournament....but not to worry...i will do anything to recover and get back my fitness.....good luck....

you left me worry....

i woke up early today, as i have to present today about a case study involve gambling going on global...i prepared it till late night....but manage to finish it...so i am very tired...so i left you a message that i already left the house...in case you are worry...no matter how tired...i still remember to left you a message...for me a simple message will do...you never reply...i assume that you are having class...so i didn't mind too much....after my presentation...i message you again...then, you still didn't give me any respond...until i reach home at 1 pm...i am worry sick...i thought anything happen to you...i call you a few times you never answer...i am tired...i am worry...i cant rest...by the time you respond...you said you are sorry...you left you phone in your bag...haih....what else can i say...i am far away from you...i cant stop hearing from you....that's the only way to ease my mind...i am sorry...i scare i am too emotional to continue our conversation...so i lied to you..i told u that i am going to take a nap...but the truth is...i cant even rest my eyes...i tried to handle it myself...try my best to don argue with you....but feels like a stone in my heart by not tell you how i felt...so i told you....i hope you are not mad...but i am really trying very hard....sorry......

stress....

well, guys....i don't use windows live blog anymore....well, i got my reason...
past month has been crazy for me...work, study, training...wow....but i stop my full time work...now as a part timer...well, is a release for me but, for my supervisor...is disaster...because our sales helped him a lot...now lose four full timer...wow...must be hard for him....he came to us...said that he need our help...of cause we will do our best to help him...because he helped us a lot....management of the company i work for is really a mess...greed...plans that is stupid...never think of the sales department....our difficulties...company at first promise to help us....but they are doing it in reverse....haih...what to do....

now is my 5th week of second year second semester...yet...i don't feel the mood to do anything yet....haih...will continue trying lo....my mum can go shanghai relax...so nice....

Yup, tournament..is next week....well, just hope i don get beat up too badly....hah...all the best....take care